First Year of College Completed

I took my last final exam last Wednesday.  School is out.  I'm officially done with my first year at college.

Just like the last semester, I don't know how I've managed to pull through and finished all of my projects, coupled with studying for finals.  The final weeks of school were real intense.  Those in the visual art department was swamped with drawing and painting finals like there's no tomorrow.  That is not to say the other departments don't have it just as bad.

My final thoughts on college is getting better.  I enjoy going to school everyday and learning about so many different things.  I've gotten to know some very cool and down-to-earth people in the process.  The teachers are pretty good, for the most part.  I think I've improved on my social skills a bit and gotten to understand myself more and more with each passing day.  School does get incredibly tiring at times--all right, a lot of the times.  But, I figured ,"Hey this isn't so bad."  I enjoyed every minute of it and can't wait to take new classes and meet new people for the upcoming Fall 2009 semester.

Kids are getting older and older, and I guess relationships are always the talk of the town.  I'm no exception.  I don't blog/talk too much about relationships is because I've never been in one.  I've never had a girlfriend.  Worse yet, I've never been kissed--aside from my mom.  I don't know how to approach a girl and ask her out.  I guess part of the reason stems from my inexperience with the outside world.  Com'on, I'm 19 years-old and never been to the movies by myself or gone to a restaurant and ordered by myself.  I lack a lot of social conditioning.  So if I did ask a girl out, is she ever going to want to be with a guy like me, who lacks street smarts?  By no means am I rushing to be in a relationship, but I'm just afraid that I'll be alone forever.

Then, there are friends.  I admit it: I don't have that many friends.  I don't know, but it's hard for me to click with people.  I get very anxious around people.  I remember that I would always go to my room and hide whenever guests arrived in our home.  It's a nasty habit that' I'm trying to work on.  I think having friends is very important.  No man can live as an island, as they say.  For me, I'd rather have a few close friends than a whole lot of frivolous friends.  It's so hard sometimes to be able to find friends and to have good conversations with or just hang out.  Moreover, I think for me, I need to develop better relations with friends before I'm ready for a girlfriend.  Heck, I can't even take care of myself yet.

Blogging on this site has been comforting.  I get to vent what's on my mind, and it helps me be at ease.  Also, I think it's made me a better writer.  It helps me cement my thoughts and encourages me to pinpoint my point across.  Writing seems to be the better form of communication for me, along with visual arts.

Time to enjoy the summer.


Thinh Nguyen